• Sent from my iPad. My love, there are no words to describe the pain that my heart feels every second of every day since I lost you. As I sat there on our neighbors porch clinging to our baby girl, I felt my heart shatter into a million pieces as I helplessly watched our home go up in flames. That moment will forever be my living nightmare. My love I have never felt so lost, so confused.. People say as time passes I'll get stronger that the pain won't hurt as bad but how could that be true when I had planned on spending the rest of my life with you. As each day passes my faith only gets weaker. I stare at your pictures a thousand times a day, I just can't accept that your gone, that I will never get to look in to those beautiful brown eyes, or see you walk through the door after getting off work. I'll never feel your touch or hear you laugh or hear you say I love you. One night last week I went to our house and I sat out front for almost four hours screaming and crying begging you to walk out that front door, I begged and pleaded over and over to God to please just let me have you back, begging and praying that I would wake up from this nightmare with you laying next to me I still beg him every night before I close my eyes. I will never stop missing you. I will never stop loving you!

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